"At an early age I knew that I had a calling from
God. I knew that I would have a mission but I did not know
what it would be. I experienced it as a burning desire to
serve God in any capacity in which he would call me.
Since I did not know how or when or where he would call
me, I knew I must study diligently, I must learn my lessons,
I must go to college and I must take the courses that he
would lead me to take. This was on my heart and mind all
of my life.
And I would seek out ministers, priests and spiritual teachers
and ask them to tell me everything that they could tell me
about religion, about the Bible, and about Jesus and the
apostles.
An event happened in my life at the age of seven that was
also to shape my future in part. It was in 1946, just after
the conclusion of World War II. The memories of the war are
very vivid to me.
I remember the blackouts and the air-raid sirens and the
CARE packages we packed and sent to Europe and the vivid
photographs in Life magazine of the holocaust. I remember
Armistice Day, when I was six years old.
In 1946 my grandmother in Switzerland was ready to pass
on, and my mother and I flew on a prop plane from New York
to London. Then we crossed the channel and took a train to
Switzerland.
When we arrived in London I saw a bombed city. This so
impressed itself upon me. I saw what war had done and could
do to a nation. We walked up and down the streets and I recorded
it in my mind as though I had a video camera. I shall never
forget it as long as I live.
And as I had that experience of awakening to the hardships
of war, which had also come to me in other ways, I knew that
whatever Jesus had for me to do in this lifetime, it would
be connected with working for world peace and attempting
to see to it that such a war would never happen again.
As part of my co-op job program at Antioch College I went
to work at the United Nations. And while working there
and observing people from all over the world, I recognized,
as God showed me in my heart, that the world’s problems
would not be solved by politics but by a deeper union with
God on an individual basis.
God showed me the people and the deeper contact they could
have with him—a living contact. And so I turned my attention
to serving people and helping them find that connection to
God that they would need in the days ahead.
After serving as an assistant to the delegates’ private
photographer during the Thirteenth General Assembly in 1958,
I became discouraged and almost cynical about what could
ever come out of the United Nations.
I had lost a certain idealism I had had about the UN
and world leaders.
That episode, however, was pivotal in pointing me toward
my mission. Before I had left home for Antioch at the age
of 18, I was visited by Saint Joseph, whom we call Saint
Germain, the ascended master and the saint.
I recognized him immediately. I knew him. I knew that I
had known him before, that my soul had known him and that
he would lead me to the work that Jesus had for me. I knew
that I had to find him in the sense that I had to find out
what I had to do for him. And thus my search began.
I could see that, regardless of whether I would be working
in religion or in some kind of government service, I had
to know what was going on in the world and why.
So I majored in political science and international relations
but I was always studying religion along with it, always
praying, always walking in the woods or up and down the streets
of Boston communing with God, asking him questions and praying
that he would use me in the way that was best for me to help
people.
In search of meaning and purpose, I transferred to Boston
University."
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